Sometimes it seems such an effort to get up and do something...even if the thing in question is something we want for ourselves...Maybe we do not want it badly enough...cause when the situation had arisen that I wanted something badly enough I had put my whole life and heart into it....had bend minds and rules to get it, did not have a moment when I was not thinking about it, did not rest a second till I got it ....where did that zeal go ..I agree the things in question now cannot be even remotely compared...but if so ,then ,surely a very little effort from that same strong willed person should be able to accompalish the task....have I become incapable of even that little effort...
Life will be very stagnant if that happens to be true and it will not be a life any more but a mere existence on this face of the earth.... I have to face my fears...do things that I fear, dislike, despise ( fancy names to fear and laziness). Maybe I should force myself to want it badly enough.
What can come of it? I will lose...that will be better than not trying and indulging in "if only".
And well theres no foretelling about the outcome....I might win as well....
Friday, August 25, 2006
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Let the shopping begin
Durga Puja is just little more than a month away....and I have already started missing it...Not that I am your sitting at the para Puja pandal type but well I am a bengali and that is reason enough.In Kolkata you just cannot get away from it.....
The clear blue sky with the clouds that look like cotton balls floating dreamily...
The "Kaash phool" which grew in abundance in the Dumdum airport grounds...
The sweet smelling " shewli" reminding us that Puja is just around the corner...
and me and my sister hinting indirectly and directly as the situation demanded to our dad to let the shopping begin....It was fun.....and its contagious....
The symptoms grow wilder with each passing day....the local and not so local guys coming to collect the "pujor chanda"Every ad in TV accompanied by the " Dhaker Awaz".Bamboo structures coming up in every corner...
It is followed by the decorations, lights and the blaring music...generally it is so loud that you cannot even think straight...but i still loved it. Maybe for the very fact that it doesn't let you think...Though as selfish as I am ,this music became equivalent to noise as soon as my phone rang or I find my sweet little Genie (my chotta sa cute sa doggie) trying to find a corner where the music doesn't hurt her ears...
And then again you have those particular songs that you associate with only Puja pandals...I do not know much about bengali Film songs....but anywhere i hear " hay re pora baashi" or " aaj milon tithir" I cannot help remembering Durga Puja though I do not like these songs...
It was bad enough when I moved to Hyderabad...They have 3 or 4 pujas there....but its not the same...it cannot be....and its only when you enter the puja premises that you feel it....
And what can I say about now, I am happy to know that bengalis get together for Durga Puja at a nearby city and I am kind of curious to know how they do it here.....but I miss kolkata....
This time the Puja is early....I hope Rain god doesnt dampen the spirits of bargain hunters and pandal hoppers....
I want everyone to have a good Puja so that I can enjoy it through them ( I told you I was selfish)....And guess what ... after writing this ....I am not feeling very left out about the fact that my lil sis and mom are going out Puja shopping today.....
Have fun people...loads of it and send me my share.....
The clear blue sky with the clouds that look like cotton balls floating dreamily...
The "Kaash phool" which grew in abundance in the Dumdum airport grounds...
The sweet smelling " shewli" reminding us that Puja is just around the corner...
and me and my sister hinting indirectly and directly as the situation demanded to our dad to let the shopping begin....It was fun.....and its contagious....
The symptoms grow wilder with each passing day....the local and not so local guys coming to collect the "pujor chanda"Every ad in TV accompanied by the " Dhaker Awaz".Bamboo structures coming up in every corner...
It is followed by the decorations, lights and the blaring music...generally it is so loud that you cannot even think straight...but i still loved it. Maybe for the very fact that it doesn't let you think...Though as selfish as I am ,this music became equivalent to noise as soon as my phone rang or I find my sweet little Genie (my chotta sa cute sa doggie) trying to find a corner where the music doesn't hurt her ears...
And then again you have those particular songs that you associate with only Puja pandals...I do not know much about bengali Film songs....but anywhere i hear " hay re pora baashi" or " aaj milon tithir" I cannot help remembering Durga Puja though I do not like these songs...
It was bad enough when I moved to Hyderabad...They have 3 or 4 pujas there....but its not the same...it cannot be....and its only when you enter the puja premises that you feel it....
And what can I say about now, I am happy to know that bengalis get together for Durga Puja at a nearby city and I am kind of curious to know how they do it here.....but I miss kolkata....
This time the Puja is early....I hope Rain god doesnt dampen the spirits of bargain hunters and pandal hoppers....
I want everyone to have a good Puja so that I can enjoy it through them ( I told you I was selfish)....And guess what ... after writing this ....I am not feeling very left out about the fact that my lil sis and mom are going out Puja shopping today.....
Have fun people...loads of it and send me my share.....